Well, first thing's first.
I'm going through a shit ass time right now.
Actually, it's been like that for the last 14 years.
I'll be honest with you, I've physically harmed someone for the second time already.
Although I swore not to become like a certain person.
I've lowered myself to his level, and I feel disgusted of myself.
I've been crying for the last month, keeping suicide thoughts in mind, and slept with a knife under my pillow.
I am NOT happy since I moved.
My social life has gone under, and I'm starting to feel a little depressed.
The only thing that keeps me sane are my siblings.
They are the people I can truly rely on.
Each day I wake up with the same b*llsh*t thrown to my head, so my school performances aren't that spectacular.
My whole day is ruined.
Then I come home, eat, and go to my safe haven: my room.
Some nights I can't sleep, just because of the shouting and screaming.
So when I talk about this situation, it's always the other person's fault.
'Oh, I didn't buy the booze, he did!' ' No, you did you b*tch!' 'You *sshole!' etc.
And I'm so sick and tired of solving everything.
I'm 18 years old, can't I have a life?
Well, honesty is overrated in a family, because nobody will listen to you, defend you or BELIEVE you.